Thoughts of a Mom To Be of Two

My little boy is taking his nap at this very moment. My house is clean & organized. Everything is quiet. I am sitting here all by myself & can't help but ponder over the thought that tomorrow I get to meet my second little baby boy. It's hard for me not to get emotional for many different reasons. I am thrilled that we were able to get pregnant so quickly this time & that I have had a relatively easy going pregnancy. I am so curious to see what this little guy looks like. Will he be a second 'mini me' to Doug? Or will he have more of my Madsen side in his look? I am happy to have an induction due to the crazy busy schedule of my husband traveling with interviews the next 2 weeks. I am however nervous about how everything will play out. I am grateful for Steph who is going to be taking my crazy Gavin all day tomorrow. It's so comforting to know that he will be in good hands & I won't have to worry one bit about him. I am however sorry in advance for her having to deal with his 2 year old tantrums/screams etc. They do grow out of it right?! I'm actually looking forward to staying in the hospital because it will be just me & baby spending time together. I am quite terrified about the coming home part. I remember with Gavin we got home, sat on the couch, looked at each other & said, "Now what?". I have a feeling that won't be the case this time. :) I am so unbelievably grateful to my mother who will be coming out on Sunday night to be with me & help with Gavin. I'm bugged that Doug has to leave for 4 days after only a couple spent with his new son & then again for an entire week the following week. I am however, very thrilled & excited & proud of my hard working husband for getting so many interviews for orthodontic programs around the country. Thank goodness for grandma's! I don't know what I would do if she weren't coming. I'm looking forward to Gavin getting to meet his new brother. I wonder what he'll do? Will he think it's just some baby or will it click that this is the baby that's in mommy's tummy? I'm a little sad that my undivided attention will no longer be on just Gavin. He is my sweet, precious, fun loving little baby & I honestly don't know if I can love this new baby as much as I do Gavin. I am dreading the recovery of having a baby & all the bodily changes that occur due to nursing etc. I am looking forward to no longer having heart burn, peeing all the time & waddling around like a fool. :) I've been nervous all week about having this baby & I'm not going to say that I'm no longer nervous, but just after writing all of this down I can now say that I am ready!!! I'm ready to have this kid, take on the role of a mother of two & attempt to keep my sanity. :) I'm thankful for all the moms out there that have been such good examples to me & that are always there for me. I know I am going to need a lot of advice when it comes to raising two children. I am so grateful for Doug & his patience with me during the last little while. I know I haven't been the most pleasant prego wife the entire ride. :) If you're still reading this, I'm impressed! ;) Stay tuned for the big news & debut of our little baby boy.